urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83 bilson83 bilson83 2006-10-10T09:36:12Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:7829 2006-10-10T09:36:12Z 2006-10-10T09:36:12Z You scored as Eating Disorders. <br /><br /><br />Congratulations! You have an eating disorder! You know what it's like to have "fat" eyelids and that there's exactly 58 calories in one medium-sized green apple. Western society has discarded your well-being for sickly, paper-thin models and celebrities; welcome to the club, sister.<br /> <br />Eating Disorders 83% <br />Unipolar Depression 67% <br />Borderline Personality Disorder 42% <br />Schizophrenia 25% <br />Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder 8% <br />Antisocial Personality Disorder 0% <br /><br />Source- <a href="http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=826">http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=826</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:7561 2006-05-31T15:46:58Z 2006-05-31T15:46:58Z I feel as tho i'm back yay! Back to how I used to eat. Normally just hav a juice OR a cup of tea OR an apple in morning, lunch is boiled mixed veggies and then tea again around mid afternoon. I don't do dinner, don't like eating after 6pm and family always has dinner around 7pm. <br /><br />I'm not going to weigh myself everyday as I did before. When the weight don't go down that is when I binge I lose the motivation. It's like after all that hard work I still aint lost weight so I might as well eat. Dumb I know.<br /><br />Probably around 130llbs, too ashamed to check. I will get down to 105llbs and will maintain it. I will. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:6976 2006-05-25T16:35:15Z 2006-05-25T16:35:15Z I have been vegetarian all my life. However yesterday I decided to become a vegan. So since yesterday I have eaten no cheese nor drunk any milk. The reason for this is because like most people my weakness is icecream and chocolate. Especially with summer on the way I do not want to give into icecream. No-one tell me any names of any vegan alternatives I don't want to know lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:6789 2006-05-15T20:26:44Z 2006-05-15T20:26:44Z I have lost control, I have no idea what the hell is wrong with me.I keep saying tomorrow will be a better day but tomorrow never comes. I am so fucking fed up of being fat but I can't seem to get the control I once had back. It's like I don't care anymore..no I do care, just not as strong as I used to be.<br /><br />Tomorrow I will get back on track. I WILL, I MUST. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:6513 2006-04-26T17:18:01Z 2006-04-26T17:18:01Z I've gone off track for the past couple of weeks and gained like 10llbs. I wish I wasn't such a compulsive eater i'm now 130 llbs grossssssss. I know the reason why I did that, I had a problem, I missed my period for two months and I was scared, i've got it back now and I want to get myself back down to 120 llbs and then finally, hopefully down to a gorgeous 105llbs. <br /><br />Gonna detox for a coupla days, starting tomorrow and then restrictive diet. YAY, I feel back in control. Lets hope it lasts... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:6398 2006-04-02T20:01:07Z 2006-04-02T20:01:07Z I am fat. I am dumb. I am moody. FAT is self explanatory, DUMB cos i failed two exams, moody no idea why..well maybe I have some idea why. <br /><br />Mum heard me trying to purge and asked me if I was sick? haha I said no obviously and she left it at that. pheww. I was trying to purge again and I just couldn't, nothing ever comes up. weird. I have an assignment due in tomorrow and I havent even finished it, I don't know whats wrong with me I just can't seem to do anything right. <br /><br />Still stuck at 120llbs, so fucking fed up. <br /><br />If any of u girlies fancy a chat add me on here and/or add me to msn on bilson83@hotmail.co.uk urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:6138 2006-03-16T13:15:30Z 2006-03-16T13:15:30Z Had the worst binge last night. Throughout my flu I managed to control myself and as soon as It was over it I had the worst cravings. Yesterday I ate a massive slice of cake...more like two servings! Also FOUR..yes FOUR bars of chocolate. omg how fat am I! I felt so sick afterwards, but never been able to purge I didn't even try this time, never works anyway. So I weighed myself this morning, can't seem to get out of the habbit of weighing myself everyday. I gained 2 llbs, not that bad I guess. Hopefully its not real fat should lose it asap. But on the up side maybe my metabolism has increased cos I came stuck at a plateau and weren't losing any weight. So hopefully lose more weight now. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:5666 2006-03-14T10:02:57Z 2006-03-14T10:02:57Z I'm so ill I can't even go to the gym. I did try yesterday I ran for 15 min and just had to get off thats no where near what I usually do. I've been home for the past week, hate this stupid flu. Its never lasted this long before, I eat plenty of fresh fruit and veg I don't know what the hells wrong with me. Why is gaining weight so much easier than losing it it SUCKS. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:5600 2006-03-11T12:23:17Z 2006-03-11T12:23:17Z When I woke up today I nearly collapsed I've never felt so faint in my life before. I reckon it might have something to do with the fact that yesterday I had too much caffeine. I had two hydroxycut pills, 2 cups of tea and 3 glasses of diet coke. Omg was I scared, anyway after 4-5 glasses of water I feel ok now. Atleast I think I was dehydrated it can't be anything else. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:5187 2006-03-10T19:25:23Z 2006-03-10T19:25:23Z hey bonegrl we have very similiar stats if u wanna chat add me on msn its bilson83@hotmail.co.uk<br /><br />I have one more question, how much caffeine is in one pill of hydroxycut compared to a cup of tea? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:4901 2006-03-10T17:50:01Z 2006-03-10T17:50:01Z Today I ate 400 calories..so far lol...mums making pizza!! aaaaahhh!! Usually I eat like 500-600 calories (most is usually negative calories but I still count them). I've been taking hydroxycut for the past three days, I don't take the recommended intake it makes me feel sick. I took one on the first day and the past two days I've taken two, one in the morning and one in the afternoon. I think it does make you feel less hungry but I aint noticed much else to be honest. I have a problem swallowing capsules so I open it up and eat the powder inside. If anyone knows if I shouldn't be doing this I would love to know. <br /><br />New stats<br /><br />Height:5'4"<br />Current Weight:123lbs<br />Short term goal:115llbs (hopefully within next 2 weeks)<br />Long term goal:105lbs urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:4719 2006-03-07T13:08:00Z 2006-03-07T13:08:00Z I'm back to 125 llbs after my stupid binges. But now i've got a cold and I hope I don't go on another binge, I always seem to whenever I reach 125llbs. I've taken the day off university, I don't seem to have the energy to do anything. I partly blame the fact that I have a cold but also maybe because yesterday was the first time that I have ever worked off 500 calories whilst consuming 500 calories. Thats ZERO calories yay. Thats pretty impressive for me. But i can't exercise for a while damn. Also those of you who didn't know about Tunes sugar free, although they are sugar free they have 100 calories in the whole pack! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:4574 2006-03-03T21:19:25Z 2006-03-03T21:19:25Z I've just put an order thru for hydroxycut should get them nxt week.But i'm feeling a bit nervous about taking them. I would love to hear from someone whos taken them and if they do work. Any side effects? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:4149 2006-03-02T15:26:25Z 2006-03-02T15:26:25Z It seems as tho a lot of ppl have binged on pizza lately. I too binged yesterday night and this morning which is sooo weird. My weaknesses are chocolate and biscuits or even better chocolate biscuits. I feel so FAT tho, fatter than usual. It happened cos I had a bit of a problem with my computer and was unable to check your journal entries, but now i've catched up I feel so much better and in control. I love reading everyones jounal entries, I must read them atleast 3-4 times a day to see the latests ones. Anyway THINK THIN. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:3912 2006-02-26T21:02:00Z 2006-02-26T21:02:00Z I just have to tell you guys about my cousin. Basically she came around a few days ago and she was well shocked when she saw me coz the last time she saw me I weighed like a stone more than I do now. Her face when she saw me! She used to be the slim one but now I am slimmer than her, gosh I can't tell you how good that felt. So i've just found out that she is dieting as well now!! omg lol To be honest that makes me feel more determined cos I don't want her to be slimmer than me, so i'm gonna work even harder and be slim, we got a competition going on now, I say bring it on. lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:3595 2006-02-26T10:49:35Z 2006-02-26T10:49:35Z Just weighed myself as I do every morning and I am finally 125llbs! I was initially 130llbs not a huge weight loss but its a start. It took so long with 2 binges on the way but getting there. I have to say I doubt I would have made it without you guys, just reading everyone's entries helps. I gotta lose 20 more pounds and then I am going to re-assess my weight goal. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:3429 2006-02-24T19:26:45Z 2006-02-24T19:26:45Z I'm back and 3llbs heavier! My excuse...exams! Now all I want to do is lose this gross fat and more. I was thinking about either stackers or hydroxycut, if anyone can help me out i'd be so greatful. Adios is a load of crap, its not strong enough, im bored of that herbal crap and want some of the real stuff. But i've never tried any diet pills before so any advice would be very much apppreciated. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:3271 2006-02-18T18:59:08Z 2006-02-18T18:59:08Z I've started to count my calorie consumption and its 650 for today! This is all from fruit, veg and tea. Is it true that fruit and veg are zero calories in that when in eating them you lose more calories in digesting them? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:3052 2006-02-17T19:39:47Z 2006-02-17T19:39:47Z I was sooooo hungry today, really felt like eating some junk food but I never! yay, but I did eat like 5-6 pieces of different fruits and 3 cups of tea with milk and 2 low fat yogurts! oo thats a helluva lot, loadsa calories, can't count them cos I never know how much is in everything. I should probably start counting calories would help. But atleast I never ate pizza, everyone's downstairs eating pizza! hah i'm here sipping my tea. <br /><br />One question which alcoholic drink would have the least amount of calories? Going out with some mates and was wondering how I could consume the least amount of calories whilst still having a good time. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:2618 2006-02-16T11:34:35Z 2006-02-16T11:34:35Z hey just out of curiosity does anyone know what US size is for UK size 10? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:2540 2006-02-14T21:56:58Z 2006-02-14T21:56:58Z happy v day everyone! If your with someone your lucky in that sense and if your not that means we don't have to eat no stinky chocolate! yay. Is it just me.. cos whenever I go gym I don't lose any more weight than when I don't go. The only thing that seems to affect my weight is how much i've eaten and no amount of exercising seems to have an impact. Went to gym yesterday lost 500 calories from jogging and lost like a pound over night. The day before I didn't go gym and still lost a pound. I didn't go gym today so I shall see tomorrow if I have lost anything.<br /><br />Enjoy valentines day, hugz n kisses xx urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:2235 2006-02-13T20:54:37Z 2006-02-13T20:54:37Z Ain't it hard to not eat when every one around you is? For me its ok, because my family know I am on a diet so I get away with not eating to an extent. I do feel for you if your unable to get away with it, must be soo hard. You diet all day but then mum or someone else makes you eat dinner. As for my friends they don't know, I wouldn't tell them because I know they would deliberately try and encourage me to eat, not out of malice but because they don't think im fat. I got called "curvy" by this guy who fancied me like omg thats another word for fat right? I wanna be skinny... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:1967 2006-02-12T11:58:29Z 2006-02-12T11:58:29Z Mum goes to me today, you should eat more!! Even tho she thinks i'm fat. (5ft4, 130llbs) The last time she saw me eat was on my binge and she saw the bad state I was in, I couldn't handle the food and needed the toilet 3x. But you know what that kinda attitude just makes me feel more determined. People want you to eat but want you to lose weight, hows that gonna work? <br /><br />What I eat on a typical day:<br /><br />breakfast- tea (with milk) and apple<br />lunch- boiled veg<br />don't eat dinner but around 4pm ish will have a couple more cups of tea with milk and maybe a handful of special k cereal<br /><br />Throughout the day will have a couple more pieces of fruit<br /><br />If you think there is anyway I can improve this plz let me know. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:1680 2006-02-10T23:34:44Z 2006-02-10T23:34:44Z oo look at what I found!<br /><br />Top 10 fat burning foods <br /><br />Here are the top picks from some of the latest research: <br /><br />1. Water! A new study seems to indicate that drinking water actually speeds up weight loss. Researchers in Germany found that subjects of the study increased their metabolic rates (the rate at which calories are burned) by 30 percent after drinking approximately 17 ounces of water. Water is also a natural appetite suppressant that banishes bloat as it flushes out sodium and toxins. Drinking enough water will also help keep you from mistaking thirst for hunger. So drink up<br /><br />Rest are on -<br /><br /><a href="http://pro-ana.us/page13.html">http://pro-ana.us/page13.html</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bilson83:1458 2006-02-10T17:25:40Z 2006-02-10T17:25:40Z Noooooo!! I just totally binged and I have never purged like ever...tried it once couldn't do it. Feeling totally fat right right now. If I hadn't binged It would have been a week 4 my diet and I have lost 6 llbs and now I bet I have gained it all back!!! <br /><br />And to top it all i'm going out tonight with mates and i've got that "sod it all" attitude. Once you eat a bit, you eat some more and some.<br /><br />How long after you eat are you still able to purge? I might give it another try. As soon my exams are over (two weeks) i'm so going on a liquid diet.